Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Thinking Out Loud

I painted a canvas that is unlike anything I've done previously. I'm not ready to show it yet; sometimes when something is new and thrilling you just need to hold it close to your heart for awhile until you have absorbed all of the lessons it has taught you. Every painting you will paint has a message for you. A wisdom, a teaching to impart. The artist's job is to study that vast mystery and to absorb it. If we are busy being critics we miss the sacred gift. So I am still taking this in; still asking what it is that it has brought into my life that was not there before.

I am a compulsive writer. I have so many notes everywhere that I am deluged - sort of weird and worried for myself that as I get older I will be buried under a sea of words. Dreams, ideas, memories, floating all around me, giving my life shape and meaning. Expressing the joy and wonder of being alive, having a body, being allowed to grow as old as I have grown, to have found the people to love me who do love me and having met all the people that I love. Everywhere I look I see beauty, kindness and loving eyes. Shining souls searching for harmony. How did I come to this amazing place? What am I under this human form? What is my job here and how can I help others find their tranquility? I want everyone to experience the feeling of being loved and finding their inner home.

I have a dream. I hope to sustain it. I know I will not always be this happy or this centered. But this place is attainable and one I can visit often. This place of open love. I hope I do not sound insane. I don't think I'm a savior. I just want the world to be at peace and for each of us to find our place of happiness. For me that means being a creator of things. My paper, pencil, canvas and paint. And glue. And glitter. Pearls and resin, inks and metal. These are my vehicles.I will share.

Another journal page. Standing naked before you would be easier than this. This is all of me.

This is my new favorite toy. Inspiration from the wise guru Randi Feuerhelm-Watts. She gives us everything she's got in these pages; what a labor of love. I am so excited to follow her prompts. She is a great play friend.

Paint, cut, paste, repeat. Die happy.


Kate said...

When I am in need of some beauty and to be reminded of what matters in life, I shall return to read this post. Thank you for opening your heart ... your journal is awe-inspiring. Your writing is magnificent. Your painting is breath-taking. There I think I've said enough!! Hug kate ox

Ro Bruhn said...

Thanks Judy for these fabulous words. I love the way you can write and paint. I fill my journals with images, the words do'nt come easy (I think it's a song).
I'm really looking forward to seeing the 'big' picture when you're ready to share it with us, it's looking terrific.

Paulette said...

What a wonderful post dear Judy! I've so enjoyed reading your posts about Artfest...I have yet to be able to bring myself to post about my experience....still too many emotions wrapped up in it all and am finding it hard to come up with words...hopefully they will come in time.

Thank you so much for all your encouragement during Artfest. You are such a special person and very dear to me. I don't think I've ever told you that and I wanted to let you know how much of a difference you've made in my life. xoxo

Dawn E. Shepherd said...

You are so funny-we would love to see you naked right along side your glorious journal pages...and who says you can't stay this happy?
I love you !!
Hope to see you soon,
Dawn E. Shepherd
Mother Rubber Art Stamps said...

What a lovely post. A painting in itself. Poetic.

Looking forward to seeing the big reveal.

Chris in AZ

kelly rae said...

you=lovely and inspiring. i really, really want to start an art journal. i need to take the leap!

Carla Sonheim said...

Your posts always give me something to think about... thank you so much for being here for us!!!

welcome to my universe said...

Thankyou for sharing your dream so eloquently. You sound as though you are in a very centered place right now.

Laurie Mika said...

Judy, Judy!! Hello! So nice to stop by and see what you have been up to! Missed seeing you at Artfest this year...but it was great reading your posts about Artfest and seeing your pictures...made me feel like I was there! You have a wonderful way with words....and of course, imagery! Can't wait to see the new painting, after you've absorbed all that you can from it, and then send it out into the world. Cheers! xoxo, Laurie M.

beth said...

What a wonderful, joyful blog! I came here via Pomegranates and Paper and spent a very happy time looking at your beautiful paintings, filled with all the colors of life, and reading your words. As I wrote at P&P, I am too wrapped up in words these days and not making enough with my hands. You inspire me to change that balance a bit. Thank you, and I look forward to coming back.