This is a time of asking the big questions. It has frankly gotten more difficult for me to teach with my voice challenges. I've pretty much decided to take 2012 off from teaching with the exception of EncaustiCamp. I have been teaching and traveling to teach now for the past 5 years and I'm feeling the need to get back to my own work (oh, that sounds pretentious!) ... but surely you know what I mean.
In 5 years great changes occur. New yearnings arise and new issues in the studio. My paintings have been poems (the etchings I did for 12 years), then still lifes (watercolor), then landscapes and interiors (reverse paintings on glass) and then storytelling (acrylic on canvas). After that 5 years of teaching mixed media classes. Getting out of the studio and reconnecting with other artists. Feeding the social part of my put-together. Falling in love with students, encouraging them and encouraging myself to take whatever path beckons.
Now I feel pulled. I don't like to do my interior work in public but today I feel like sharing this. What I have to express in my paintings is seeking a new form. I still have a story to tell; of life being this lush adventure. Of finding myself in a physical body that has certain affinities, that is picky, near-sighted and yet brave. Of coming to the conclusion that the world is a place of great beauty and great sorrow.
That's enough for one day. I'm sure each of you is on your own adventure of discovery, change and awe. What an opportunity we each have. Freedom to search and draw our own conclusions; freedom to leave our marks and words behind as we ourselves pass through.
I love the saying about our ground time here being short. All the more reason to say it, paint it, leave some evidence.