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Sunday, May 23, 2010

Thank You Dear Friends


Man, we are soggy up here in the Pacific Northwest; it feels like it's going to rain forever. John runs out every dry moment to string more bean trellises then wrings his hands about ever getting seed in the ground. And me - I am listless putty, cajoling myself to stay awake, get up on my feet, rebuild my strength and energy following the successful thyroplasty surgery. I'm alive!!


John says I look like someone tried to saw my head off; a big jagged scar now from ear lobe to past my adam's apple. I'm thinking of good stories to tell about how I got it. Something involving gypsies, a knife fight and a dark alley. ha ha. That's me alright. I'm baaaaad.


I'm still on voice restriction until next week when I see my doctor. I feel so fortunate to have a chance to return to a nearly normal life although time will tell. So much is unknown at this point and the challenge is to stay open to all possibilities. It's a balancing act.

Through all the changes and challenges and ups and downs my journal has been my refuge. The pages I am working on now are about reclaiming my "badness", really my deep passion for all the illusions that make life so rich and juicy. I've always had a thing for rebels, misfits and bohemians; intellectuals and artistes. May I never lose my fire (my love of being alive); that's my deepest desire, to always stay connected to others and to the joys of finding myself in a human form. This life; it's endlessly amazing.

Love to you too. I hope your life amazes you.

67 comments:

Nancy Lynn said...

I'm wishing you the best ever. You have been in my prayers and thougts.....oh to have some rain in AZ right now.

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nanakin1 said...

I love your work and admire your feisty attitude. Glad your health is improving.
Nancy Scott

Jenny Lee Wentworth said...

Glad the surgery went well. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers Judy.

♥Jenny

Michele said...

Wishing you a speedy recovery. I'm so glad to hear the surgery went well. I admire your braveness through out this whole ordeal. Hope to hear soon that you are talking up a storm!

Snap said...

Send your rain here! Love your work and your *badness*. Wishing you well. Joy to You!

Clare Wassermann said...

I always says to my friends when they leave -" bye - be good, and if you can't be good be BAD!" x

iHanna said...

So glad you're back Mrs Scarface, I hope you heal quick and regain your strength!

Kim Mailhot said...

I was thinking of you all day today - it is so good to have news you how you are making it through By the way, you are the goodest baaaaad girl I know ! I lobve that bad self and the love for life that is shining brightly in spite of the scars.
Keeping the juju going for that voice to come singing back.
Big Love to you. Heal well, my Friend.

Pamela Holderman said...

So glad that the surgery went well. The summer weather is surely headed our way soon. I still love thinking about my Art Fest class with you last year. You really inspired me and I have been painting ever since. Thanks and I wish you a quick and perfect recovery.

Sharon said...

Wishing you all the badness you can muster. And so happy to hear a little from you. I enjoyed seeing your journal page grow.

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Kate said...

Wishing you continued healing. I also love your attitude, the story of your scar is going to be great. You could have many versions that are all fun.

Kate

La Dolce Vita said...

i just cannot imagine that you could loose your fire! so happy that the surgery went well and you will soon be up to "badness"!

snowbird42 said...

When has "bad" been so good?
You are an inspiration to me.

lyle baxter said...

hooray! we are all so happy to hear good news from your corner. take it easy and keep your mouth shut until the doc says ok! lyle

Toni said...

Judy---thank goodness it went well. Now on to living the way you know how!Let your hands do the talking for the time being. Keep us posted.

patti said...

Lovely to hear your voice loud and strong here Judy! Wishing you patience in your healing, it's tough being a patient!

Ocean Lotus said...

so happy to HEAR from you in any way you brighten many a day

Pilar said...

Judy, so good to hear you are safe and sound and at home. During my anthro days, a very wise cudadera told me that scars are the external map of our inner travels. Scars make the character. Sending you and John psychic hugs!xoxoxoxo

PaperPumpkin said...

Thoughts and prayers are being sent to you each day. I love your strength and admire you. Your smile is contagious..thank you.

Caity said...

SO very pleased to hear your surgery went well. Love the idea of the gypsies... or maybe a tiger?!

kluless said...

So good to have you back and hear you "getting down with your bad self"! Still sending prayers and strength your way for a full and speedy recovery.

Irene said...

I've been anxiously waiting to hear how your surgery went, and so grateful that the news is good! I really hate scars, you know, but I have a feeling that yours is going to change my mind. No, really! I can't wait to hear all about it. Sending love and hugs, as always. :-)

artyowza said...

I've been waiting for the your news.
You are role model for me in courage!

And so it goes... said...

Gypsies, tramps & thieves... with knives.... Brings a smile thinking of the wild tale you'll concoct! And surely there'll be a "doll" depicting it all! So glad you're still "you". Your fire burns bright...no stinkin' paraganglioma can keep you down! Happy healing....
xoxoxo deb.debbie.debra

Lynn said...

Well obvously you have been forced to be really brave...and it sounds like you have been! You inspire in more ways than you will ever know!
Me, who is afraid to have a tooth pulled...
I am impressed and glad you are done with this surgery. I now join everyone else with prayers and healing thoughts for a complete recovery...sooner than later...asap.
The mike was a good idea! (if I do say so myself) and glad you ordered it. Yes, it saves anyones voice no matter what when having to talk a lot during a class.
So, little by little, day by day, be gentle with yourself and watch your energy come back. Before too long you will be good as new.
Hoooooping, hoping, hoping!!!!
Hugs from me!
the journal pages are fun, the photo of you with slit throat however makes me squirm...but that is just me. (Not a brave one like you!)

lilasvb said...

you wish you to be better, i like the page with b&w pictures add

Anonymous said...

have been checking everyday....so glad to hear you are mending well.
Take care.
missy from the bayou

Jacky said...

Me too....always loved the misfits, bohemians, eccentrics...

Rest your lovely voice (even though I have never heard it...but hope to one day), enjoy your flowers, the rain, your friends, your art and all of the many wonderful things in your life.

Jacky xox

jgr said...

Hi Judy,
So glad to see your post. I've been keeping you in my prayers.

Sarah said...

I love the journal pages. So glad you are through the surgery and I wish you a great recovery!

Amy said...

didn't realize i was holding my breath until i came here and saw your post and knew you were okay. so glad to know you are mending and healing and surrounded by spring growth and life and love.

right now i am humming "when you're a jet, you're a jet for all time" and picturing you wielding a switchblade and fighting off the other guy... go on with your bad self!

be well. xo Amy

Meri said...

So happy to hear that you're mending. Knife fight, indeed!

Joanie Hoffman said...

You are alive!
How wonderful for the world!
Happy Monday,
Joanie

Cindy said...

It does seem that it might rain forever up here in the Pacivic NW! How it makes me treasure our occasionally sunny days. I think you summed it up best with "It's a balancing act." So glad you're doing well.

kelly rae said...

judy, your way of living and expressing and believing and loving astounds me.

we are all here thinking of you and sitting with you and sending up eons of healing wishes..

and knowing you, you WILL have the best story to explain your scar.

xxo

Laura said...

I'm seeing your rain outside my window Judy, we've had so much the last month or so, unusual for southwest Texas let me tell ya!

SO glad all went well and that you're on the mend!!! Your shining spirit & voice come through loud and clear here. And you simply must reclaim your 'baaaad' :)

{Hugs}
Laura xo

Jill said...

So pleased you are home - wear your scar with pride and spin those yarns.
Art will see your through

Marit said...

Yieeeeehaaaaa (let me do the screaming dear!) you're alive, you're back and your journaling!!!! I'm soooo glad!!!!! And I love the stories you already are thinking of... definitely put a gypsy in!!! (a tall, handsome one... and a woman with golden earrings and a long, red skirt...) Wish you a good recovery!!!

elizabeth said...

judy--I just wanted to reach out and say that I am so glad to hear this latest surgery went well and to thank you for keeping us up to date and for sharing with honesty and humour!!! My thoughts have been with you these past months and I wanted to send a real-time HUG!!

xoxoxo ( the squam beer-bringer-with-the-big-grin), elizabeth n

peggy said...

You are amazing and I so hope that you will get your voice back. You have encourged all of us and we thank you dear Judy, your are a wonderful, caring, creative human being. May you sing not only in your heart but so others may hear. Your journal and blog are your songs for right now. Your appreciated.

The Dreaming Bear said...

Wishing you well in your recovery. You'll get your groove back before you know it! Cheers!

Daris Judd said...

Happy to hear the good news.

Seth said...

Glad to hear you are feeling better and better!

Loretta a/k/a Mrs. Pom said...

Judy, I firmly believe that you will reclaim your "badness" - loud and clear. Here's to you and the return of your bad-ass voice!!

Candace said...

I have a similar scar. Enjoy it while it shows up. Or lasts... erm, you know what I mean. Seriously, mine is quite unnoticeable now.

And, I told all my geeks and pupils that Klingons were REAL!
X
Candace

rscoach said...

Judy - you are amazing! 90% of healing is attitude & gratitude - so you are well on your way - having lived thru a death defying accident after the Northridge earthquake and dealing with recovery after being saved I understand your feelings - continued good wishes and prayers for your full and speedy recovery - the scar story's a good one - and after you have fun telling the story and the scar is on it's way to healing you can rub vitamin e on it to lighten the scar - hugs- reva (los angeles)

Marilyn Rock said...

I was glad to read your surgery went well. Prayers will continue for a speedy recovery to heal. Good health is everything!

We could use a little of your rain :)

mkayteem on scs said...

Hugs and best wishes for a speedy recovery from Westerville, Ohio!

Jan said...

Judy, wishing you a speedy recovery. I look forward to seeing and working with you in July in Idylwild.

Gwen said...

so glad to hear that you are concocting stories and honing your fighting spirit! You are an inspiration in so many ways!

BIG HUGS!!
Gwen

Maija said...

You and your strength are amazing me right now!

Serena Barton said...

I think of you so often, and love how baaad you are! Your Voice carries beautifully even when you aren't talking.

JAN said...

Hi Judy. please please please would you put a followers widget on your blog so i can be alerted of your new posts other wise i end up losing out on all your fabulousness.ty so much Janet

Sharon Lovejoy said...

Watching your progress, step by step, is amazing.

I am sending love from the road as we journey our way to Maine.

Think of this...baaaad and exciting, gyspy who almost got her throat slit, but managed to survive and journal about it.

Love, love,

Sharon Lovejoy Writes from Sunflower House and a Little Green Island (and a Saab stuffed to the roof with treasures)

Katie said...

I absolutely love your journal, it is such an inspiration and I thank you for sharing with us :) I wish you a quick recovery :) xoxo

Tess said...

These pages look full of life and hope to me... Blessings to you dear Judy....

Lay Hoon aka mescrap said...

All the best to you !!
Take care.

Beth said...

Wow! I just discovered your blog through Sharon Lovejoy's blog. I need to explore! I'm enthralled by your journal. I hope you are on the mend soon. love, Beth

amy said...

i hope you are healing well, judy. as everyone else said, i'm happy to hear the surgery went well. i hope you and your badness are up and running soon.
xo
amy

Karin Bartimole said...

Thank you for your visit, and prayers. So glad you left words, so that I could come to visit you here. Your journal pages are inspiring.
I'm sending you prayers of a swift return to your full voiced, bad self!

Irene said...

Thinking about your scar again. . . Have you ever wondered what it would be like to have John's mad gardening skills? And do you think he has ever wondered what it would be like to have yours? (I have!) Well, you could always tell people that John chickened out of the head transplant you two were scheduled for. ;-)

Brian K said...

Wishing you the very best! Your in my thoughts and prayers. Your pages are amazing! Love them!

Chrissy said...

You're alive! Thank goodness - in every sense.

Keep going, keep well.

somepinkflowers said...

good news
all around here!

listen,

as creative practice
i have learned to make up
~~a new story~~
every
single
time
about each of my scars!

:-)


try it when you can speak again freely
or
practice every morning
in your head
when you awake...
just make
a new story as mental exercise,
so to speak.


think of it as a
~~creative writing challenge~~

*How I Got My Scar*


you will be great at this
i just know it...



PS--> it is truly fun
to watch the reactions;
most people will not Ask
so
be forthcoming
or you will miss Opportunities...

Commuter's Journal said...

Wishing you speedy healing and a complete recovery, Judy.