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Thursday, January 25, 2007

My 100th Post

"The moving hand has writ" as the old poet said and our journals prove it. Capturing time; the moods, thoughts, worries and joys. All summer I work and play hard and then winter comes and I shut down as much as possible and go inside. I dream, piddle around, read everyone's blogs, dream I am a great cook and someday will create a giant chocolate ganache to make my poor deprived husband's eyes bug out with wonder but no; it is only the castles I build in my imagination. If wishes were fishes.

Getting the ideas to materialize is so much work. I will put the finishing touches on a big 30x40" canvas today. I paint with the canvas tilted on a flat table because the big easel makes my arm hurt after awhile. A vertical canvas is so much trouble; I can never get back far enough to see what I am doing. I feel like a bug painting a mural. And the painting. It is weird. John came in last night and made the wrong kind of noises when he saw it and then tried to back peddle. It's okay. I know it is an odd one. But what is an artist if not a person who crawls out to the end of the limb? If you think about the risk you will be doomed. Silenced. And so you go on and paint the occasional weird canvas.

I've been wholly absorbed in the idea that I must gather the materials to (1) hook a rug out of strips of wool and (2) learn how to knit a sweater. I think the painting I will show you in a day or two would make a good hooked rug. Maybe that is where my mind is right now.

Thanks for hanging with me. I am feeling indecisive today but also accepting of that. More so than I usually am; I am usually bipolar-ish and unable to find the middle. How about you? Winter compared to summer? Do you change with the seasons? I really want to know.

10 comments:

dolceamara said...

I am prone to SAD, so I am a bit of a wreck, but mostly in January—my least favorite month. And yet, this is where I come to feel better, so thank you! :-)

Carla Sonheim said...

Hi Judy! Congratulations on your 100th post! I am also "bi-polarish" and I do think it can be worse in winter, though I live in Colorado where it is sunny year-round... Can't wait to see the new painting!!!!!

judie said...

Oh my gosh I can't believe I found you on a blog! I have been a fan of your art for a long time. You did a cover for a natural mag, right? I think it was called Awakenings, or Nature something, anyway, it was The Girl Who Loved Animals. I had submitted for that cover too and the girl said she would submit it to her corp. office and of course I never heard back, and then I saw your pic on the cover and I understood why!! LOL Anyhow, I went to your website then and loved everything I saw! Then last summer, I went to an outdoor show and you were there! I recognized the Girl Who Loved Animals painting, and I walked over and talked with you for just a minute. I think the show was in St. Petersburg or Dunedin...can't remember now. Well, now that I have blabbed and blabbed I'll go, but I'm so glad to know you have a blog and I'll be back for sure becuz I LOVE your art!!! :)

kelly rae said...

i get the whole bipolarish thing. just last nite i posted a depressing post and today, i am brighter. this is how life happens for me lately...

Robyn said...

I definitely change with the seasons but I'm the opposite to you. Here in South Africa its so terribly hot in Spring and Summer that I go into a decline then rather than in winter. When Autumn arrives I go into an art frenzy producing mounds of work which continues through winter. The first hint of summer heat puts a cloud of doom over my head.

wrenrose/birdandflower said...

I am very sensitive in the winter. I almost cannot bear the short days, and count the hours before spring. By the end of Jan. I am literally crying for spring. I go out every day and check the buds on the trees and check the weather for the faintest sign of temperature increase.On the other hand, I am more productive because I am inside and hibernating all winter.

Congratulations on your 100th post!

lila said...

Congratulations on your 100th post!
I love your lemonade painting!
Obviously you have not let blogging (or cleaning studios...)get in the way of making art!

Laini Taylor said...

I love that: "made the wrong kind of noise" - ha ha! I know that noise! Silence is just as bad, a slightly too-long pause? But yes, you need to explore the weird places too. It's all part of the process. And I'm sure it will be wonderful too! As for winter, I must admit to loving the solitude of it. I am a hermit. When the snow came, we hoped we'd be snowed in for days -- but then we un-hoped it because we actually had to go out of town! Still, it made me think that in the future it would be lovely to rent a cabin in the mountains for part of the winter and be in the snow, in the quiet, for weeks.

LisaOceandreamer said...

OMG!! Tonight I was surfing blogs, going from one amazing artist to the next and when I got here I started to scroll. The whole time I kept taking in a breath...with each new photo I came upon I was in complete and wonderful amazement and total awe. I am adding your blog under my 'other inspirations' link so I can readily come back and see what splendid new items appear.

Pam Aries said...

Summer is the worst for me! I live in the South and summer is nothing short of BRUTAL! I do not even want to go out for a second! ~~~waving at my friends Judie, Lila and Oceandreamer!