Thinking Out Loud

I painted a canvas that is unlike anything I've done previously. I'm not ready to show it yet; sometimes when something is new and thrilling you just need to hold it close to your heart for awhile until you have absorbed all of the lessons it has taught you. Every painting you will paint has a message for you. A wisdom, a teaching to impart. The artist's job is to study that vast mystery and to absorb it. If we are busy being critics we miss the sacred gift. So I am still taking this in; still asking what it is that it has brought into my life that was not there before.

I am a compulsive writer. I have so many notes everywhere that I am deluged - sort of weird and worried for myself that as I get older I will be buried under a sea of words. Dreams, ideas, memories, floating all around me, giving my life shape and meaning. Expressing the joy and wonder of being alive, having a body, being allowed to grow as old as I have grown, to have found the people to love me who do love me and having met all the people that I love. Everywhere I look I see beauty, kindness and loving eyes. Shining souls searching for harmony. How did I come to this amazing place? What am I under this human form? What is my job here and how can I help others find their tranquility? I want everyone to experience the feeling of being loved and finding their inner home.

I have a dream. I hope to sustain it. I know I will not always be this happy or this centered. But this place is attainable and one I can visit often. This place of open love. I hope I do not sound insane. I don't think I'm a savior. I just want the world to be at peace and for each of us to find our place of happiness. For me that means being a creator of things. My paper, pencil, canvas and paint. And glue. And glitter. Pearls and resin, inks and metal. These are my vehicles.I will share.

Another journal page. Standing naked before you would be easier than this. This is all of me.

This is my new favorite toy. Inspiration from the wise guru Randi Feuerhelm-Watts. She gives us everything she's got in these pages; what a labor of love. I am so excited to follow her prompts. She is a great play friend.

Paint, cut, paste, repeat. Die happy.